Even my general mood is like -___- and unresponsive and I'm permanently appearing offline on msn because I am so tired everyday that I am completely in no mood to go chat about.
Just feel like daoing everyone on msn lol. Staring at the com screen makes my eyeballs want to jump out of their sockets.
Today was another crappy day.
Slept 2 hours wake up rush to NTU.
Leave NTU go meeting to go Sarimbun with the rest of GC minus cheeyeow and zhixuan.
Take a long bus ride to sarimbun, played needforspeed on chu's psp and got motion sick.
Reached bus stop. walked like 20min down some fei road to Sarimbun.
Went around Sarimbun.
Took 20 min to walk back down that screwed up road.
Took a long bus ride back to CCK and got motion sick again thanks to needforspeed.
Went Chuyong's house with rest of GC and zhixuan minus cheeyeow.
Meeting with chips and pizza and m&m and 100+.
Added 1 green m&m to the 100+ and JKT and PCY and THQ all followed suit added green M&Ms, so there was an eerie green layer of green stuff floating at the bottom of the cup of 100+.
Me and Jeremy bitch each other as usual HAHA
Meeting lasted nearly 4 hours.
Brain totally tan huan.
Take MRT back home.
Felt like shit; smelly and tired.
Shower.
Felt like shit; tired but slightly refreshed.
1 game of inhouse dota which lasted barely 20 minutes.
And then a blogpost because I am simply too........I don't know.
Tired? Fatigued? Bored?
Heck. This holiday is making my mood swing a mile away from the mood I started my sec4 year with. All that passion for science and that "fresh new start" feeling all gone.
It doesnt feel like a holiday at all. It's just a large burden on my mind because I feel so tired and lousy everyday thanks to fatigue. Don't even bloody enjoy talking cock with people because of my bad mood woooooooo. The only bunch of people whom I'm truly enjoying my time with is the GC because we talk kock its damn fun haha. Hanging out with the GC is the only thing that's keeping my spirits up, because talking to anyone else doesnt and never makes me feel any better. No exceptions here. If you talk to me on msn, I dont even talk much nowadays because I'm in no mood to talk to anyone. Maybe just talk a bit to be polite. Bleargh.
Normally its pretty easy for me to just lala :) and get the degenerating and demoralizing stuff over and done with. But somehow in the holidays all these crappy feelings just pile up and I am pretty helpless about this plight I am in now. Not really a plight, but well, just this awful feeling of fatigue and boredom which follows me like a shadow.
Meeting lasted nearly 4 hours.
Brain totally tan huan.
Take MRT back home.
Felt like shit; smelly and tired.
Shower.
Felt like shit; tired but slightly refreshed.
1 game of inhouse dota which lasted barely 20 minutes.
And then a blogpost because I am simply too........I don't know.
Tired? Fatigued? Bored?
Heck. This holiday is making my mood swing a mile away from the mood I started my sec4 year with. All that passion for science and that "fresh new start" feeling all gone.
It doesnt feel like a holiday at all. It's just a large burden on my mind because I feel so tired and lousy everyday thanks to fatigue. Don't even bloody enjoy talking cock with people because of my bad mood woooooooo. The only bunch of people whom I'm truly enjoying my time with is the GC because we talk kock its damn fun haha. Hanging out with the GC is the only thing that's keeping my spirits up, because talking to anyone else doesnt and never makes me feel any better. No exceptions here. If you talk to me on msn, I dont even talk much nowadays because I'm in no mood to talk to anyone. Maybe just talk a bit to be polite. Bleargh.
Normally its pretty easy for me to just lala :) and get the degenerating and demoralizing stuff over and done with. But somehow in the holidays all these crappy feelings just pile up and I am pretty helpless about this plight I am in now. Not really a plight, but well, just this awful feeling of fatigue and boredom which follows me like a shadow.
Sometimes RI doods are probably the best people you'll meet in your life. I am really starting to feel the withdrawal symptoms of RI school life when I don't get to meet a bunch of happy-go-lucky jokers everyday. I honestly feel that the GC will be my last connection to RI life where a bunch of joker RI boys can just laugh things off without going through any troubling considerations.
RI's just fun and RI rocks.
If you doods are genuinely enjoying your holidays with your family and friends, I am honestly and truly happy for you doods. Keep it up, really. This will probably be the last break before you can finally take a breather after the A's. Enjoy your happy holidays.
If you doods live a crappy life like mine with responsibilities haunting you from your CCA (my involvement in scouts is still considered a burden although I willingly pledge my service to my scout group) and a stupid program you regret signing up for (YDSP), then please feel free to pop on Garena and find some lifeless people to play dota with.
I'm personally quitting dota (only playing 1 match a day, at most 2), because I simply found it too empty and time-wasting.
Oh, on an interesting note with no offence to any religious group.
My J2 senior and friend talked to me about his past experiences and tried to persuade me to turn Christian. I found his stories enriching and meaningful but I declined, since I am a person who has developed my own perspective to this world I live in, and I have made my peace to issues regarding beliefs and world views.
Sometimes I feel glad about how religions change individuals to become better people and more active citizens in society. (Yet you see those crazy bomber extremists running amok around the world) But no, I am a person who has completely no intention to get myself a faith. Seems hypocritical, but heck.
RI's just fun and RI rocks.
If you doods are genuinely enjoying your holidays with your family and friends, I am honestly and truly happy for you doods. Keep it up, really. This will probably be the last break before you can finally take a breather after the A's. Enjoy your happy holidays.
If you doods live a crappy life like mine with responsibilities haunting you from your CCA (my involvement in scouts is still considered a burden although I willingly pledge my service to my scout group) and a stupid program you regret signing up for (YDSP), then please feel free to pop on Garena and find some lifeless people to play dota with.
I'm personally quitting dota (only playing 1 match a day, at most 2), because I simply found it too empty and time-wasting.
Oh, on an interesting note with no offence to any religious group.
My J2 senior and friend talked to me about his past experiences and tried to persuade me to turn Christian. I found his stories enriching and meaningful but I declined, since I am a person who has developed my own perspective to this world I live in, and I have made my peace to issues regarding beliefs and world views.
Sometimes I feel glad about how religions change individuals to become better people and more active citizens in society. (Yet you see those crazy bomber extremists running amok around the world) But no, I am a person who has completely no intention to get myself a faith. Seems hypocritical, but heck.
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Non-scouts people might want to note that GC= group council = 9 of us who are taking over next year in scouts xD
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