Tuesday, December 30, 2008

the age when you start to wonder what you are going to do with your life.

Random post.

Jonathan was talking to me and Zhixuan (I listened more than I talked) about the elderly in Switzerland and those in Singapore. If you didn't know, Jonathan is an Eurasian who is from Switzerland, so he goes there every once in a while. 

He was telling us how the elderly in Switzerland always seemed happy, and lived active lifestyles; like even in the winter he could see them "jumping about". Meanwhile, he told us how the elderly of Singapore seemed like they could die any moment if they didnt receive aid and help from the society.

Then we started going to other topics such as how liberal governments are, like how in Switzerland some drugs were sort of rationed to addicts so as to ease their lives a bit, rather than a strict ban on drugs like in Singapore. This was to reduce cases where addicts would get too desperate and resort to illegal means to procure their drugs and cause danger to the society. 

Then in Holland where drugs just....fly around. Then Zhixuan mentioned that he didn't understand how people just threw their lives and futures away knowing that drugs suck, but I also mentioned that the upbringing of the people and the peers in their lives are probably the reasons why they got hooked onto  drugs.

On a seperate note, I always enjoy observing conversations rather than being involved in one. 

Anyway, I was looking at some anime blogs at the (little) free time I had, and I saw this post. http://that.animeblogger.net/2008/12/28/bootleg-figurines-customer-or-sellers-fault/

Essentially, the animeblogger's friend bought a fake figurine accidentally in an anime expo (he didnt notice that it was a fake because of the glossy plastic), put a thread on SGCafe to warn others about fake goods, but instead got flamed for being stupid enough to buy a fake.

When I read the comments, they reminded me heavily of the crap I read on STOMP. You know, STOMP, the website composed of mostly idiotic Singaporeans who see it as an avenue to flame random things. A lot of STOMP users are vivacious (noisy) and analytical (nitpicky) and are always ready to provide feedback (love flaming others on forums). The Singaporean society is kind of, restless. There are no social, economic, or political issues where people can direct their energies into. The result is a society which is always ready to make a big hoo-ha of whatever happens. Now think of families. And the number of families out there, man, wife, and their children. Then imagine normal family life. Now the Singapore society doesn't seem that bad huh. It's so hard for me to stereotype my own society, probably because its impossible in the first place.

And I'm still wondering what I'm going to do with my own life. My education is probably my greatest undoing, because being in RI makes you detached from the realities in society and life, which is so unlike people in poly and stuff, who probably have more realistic expectations of their lives.



Monday, December 29, 2008

Watched Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo (The girl who leapt through time). Not bad.

Animation quality was not bad although Byousoku 5cm pwns it hands down.

The storyline was, I wouldn't say DAMN good, it was not bad, but I thought the twist at the end was quite -__- cheesy and the story ending was damn far from some epic ending. I don't demand epic endings but this story seems to cry for an epic ending. 

Essentially, for the 1st 2/3 of the movie, the story seemed a bit weird. The concept is there but you never seem to be able to feel where the entire movie will lead to.

The twist was damn unpredictable, or rather, the twist was damn out of place. It was some what-the-heck kind of twist, that kind which is so....kock.

Complaints aside, it's still a good anime movie.

azumanga daioh 

Its lucky star in a sense, but.....

OP =WHAT THE HECKK??!!?!

character drawing = WHAT THE HECKK??!!?!..gives me nightmares....

general story = WHAT THE HECK??!!?!

WHAT THE HECK LA THE WHOLE THING.

lucky star is funny but THIS ONE ISNT. ITS LIKE LUCKY STAR WITHOUT THE FUNNAYE PART.

And if you take out funny from lucky star, you get......wtf I don't know what the hell you get, but it probably spells out as crap.

Its like watching that Osaka girl spacing out makes my patience grow wings and fly off to....to Istanbul? 

And I'm sure la I just realised that my parents didn't tell me about the letter from RI/JC regarding open house and school start and stuff.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

update

Ok my life has been like 100% scouts so far since the previous update.

GC Retreat, in more accurate terms, handover camp.

Just sit in circles and discuss stuff with AC and GC08. 

1st day ended 3 1/2 hrs late, 2nd day ended 3 hours late.

We slept at like 3am for 1st day and 4.30am for 2nd day. 

Basically nothing happened, I was too tired to watch anime and we didn't play any dota at all.

At like 3am for the 2nd day, me Ram Jonathan (Kenric Trachsel) Jeremy and Wayne went to the "haunted hospital" (Changi Hospital, the old and destroyed one) for an adventure.

Then it's like damn freaky la, its like some damn destroyed hospital sitting on top of a hill with this narrow and ruined staircase leading up to it. We saw this light on the 3rd storey of the building light up, then it went off again, which frightened Jeremy and Wayne so much that they chickened out.

Then me and Jon and Ram went up the stairs, went to the entrance of the hospital, but it was too dark to see anything + we didn't have a torch, so we left lorh -___-

We returned the next morning, went to the room which lighted up last night, and realised that there were no light bulbs inside and the switch for the lights outside had its wires cut. We also saw some soft drinks and food packaging lying around at random spots. Homeless people live there I guess.

Outing:

4 hours of straight man badminton, Ram kept drop shotting me after hitting long shots, so I kept trying to sprint all the way to the net from the back of the court to hit the shot away (fail 90%).

Spent the night at Shide's house playing Wii with the rest of the GC. Foamed the next morning with muscle ache, and crazy levels of fatigue.

Went home slept from 3pm to 9pm then slept again from 6am till 8am, woke up and went for scouts meeting.

Scouts meeting from 9am till 2pm.

Went Jeremy's house at 3pm. Screwed around until 10pm. I got pwned in Mahjong cos I totally don't know how to play at all. Ram Verma is not bad of a mahjong player, but Jeremy had to write out a translation sheet for him because he can't read chinese characters.

"Pickpocketed" Haoqin when we took the lift down for dinner, because his wallet was sticking out of his bag.

After dinner (yeah I have already returned him his wallet), while we were waiting at the bus stop, some random guy came over and told us one of us lost our wallet. Haoqin lost his wallet again. Hoho how careless.

Yesterday slept at 12am (amazing and unprecedented), and woke up just now at 1.30pm. Yay.



Monday, December 22, 2008

Just sent out feedbacks for kkcy's RT proposal. Seems like he's done a great job for a first submission. Impressive, like his meepo.

It's like 5am now and im gna wake up at 8 tmrw.



k i'll try to survive the next few days.

Of endless discussions, proposal writing and facing the computer screen.

But I got a motherpain motherbig ulcer.

I have some preparations though!

1.) Learned to setup adhoc network. At least can dota with laohao =D Even downloaded hamachi installer so can pass arnd to ppl then we can hopefully inhouse HEHHEHEHE.

2.) Got Beyond those Clouds and Voices of a Distant Star downloaded. I can at least watch them if Im bored.


But that's assuming we have free time ya. We will probably come out of the chalet house looking more pale than before we started the retreat.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei is a frigging social commentary.

Its not bad but I simply could not catch a lot of references since I don't live in Japan.

Anyway looking forward to "retreat" 22-24Dec.

Its just being saigang warriors in a chalet =D

Oh, and YDSP, the prof is overseas the co-mentor is....I forgot, overseas too? 

The guy from simtech is on leave, and the guy whos covering up for him is also on leave too.

Screw YDSP larh. I think I probably wont even have time to submit a report because of all these problems with the manufacturing. The prof will probably be pissed but too bad YDSP and DSO probably cant do anything to me.

Friday, December 19, 2008

holyshit

This is probably the worst holiday in my whole life.

Even my general mood is like -___- and unresponsive and I'm permanently appearing offline on msn because I am so tired everyday that I am completely in no mood to go chat about.

Just feel like daoing everyone on msn lol. Staring at the com screen makes my eyeballs want to jump out of their sockets.

Today was another crappy day.

Slept 2 hours wake up rush to NTU.

Leave NTU go meeting to go Sarimbun with the rest of GC minus cheeyeow and zhixuan. 

Take a long bus ride to sarimbun, played needforspeed on chu's psp and got motion sick.

Reached bus stop. walked like 20min down some fei road to Sarimbun.

Went around Sarimbun.

Took 20 min to walk back down that screwed up road.

Took a long bus ride back to CCK and got motion sick again thanks to needforspeed.

Went Chuyong's house with rest of GC and zhixuan minus cheeyeow.

Meeting with chips and pizza and m&m and 100+.

Added 1 green m&m to the 100+ and JKT and PCY and THQ all followed suit added green M&Ms, so there was an eerie green layer of green stuff floating at the bottom of the cup of 100+.

Me and Jeremy bitch each other as usual HAHA

Meeting lasted nearly 4 hours.

Brain totally tan huan.

Take MRT back home.

Felt like shit; smelly and tired.

Shower.

Felt like shit; tired but slightly refreshed.

1 game of inhouse dota which lasted barely 20 minutes.

And then a blogpost because I am simply too........I don't know.

Tired? Fatigued? Bored? 

Heck. This holiday is making my mood swing a mile away from the mood I started my sec4 year with. All that passion for science and that "fresh new start" feeling all gone. 

It doesnt feel like a holiday at all. It's just a large burden on my mind because I feel so tired and lousy everyday thanks to fatigue. Don't even bloody enjoy talking cock with people because of my bad mood woooooooo. The only bunch of people whom I'm truly enjoying my time with is the GC because we talk kock its damn fun haha. Hanging out with the GC is the only thing that's keeping my spirits up, because talking to anyone else doesnt and never makes me feel any better. No exceptions here. If you talk to me on msn, I dont even talk much nowadays because I'm in no mood to talk to anyone. Maybe just talk a bit to be polite. Bleargh.

Normally its pretty easy for me to just lala :) and get the degenerating and demoralizing stuff over and done with. But somehow in the holidays all these crappy feelings just pile up and I am pretty helpless about this plight I am in now. Not really a plight, but well, just this awful feeling of fatigue and boredom which follows me like a shadow. 

Sometimes RI doods are probably the best people you'll meet in your life. I am really starting to feel the withdrawal symptoms of RI school life when I don't get to meet a bunch of happy-go-lucky jokers everyday. I honestly feel that the GC will be my last connection to RI life where a bunch of joker RI boys can just laugh things off without going through any troubling considerations.

RI's just fun and RI rocks.

If you doods are genuinely enjoying your holidays with your family and friends, I am honestly and truly happy for you doods. Keep it up, really. This will probably be the last break before you can finally take a breather after the A's. Enjoy your happy holidays.

If you doods live a crappy life like mine with responsibilities haunting you from your CCA (my involvement in scouts is still considered a burden although I willingly pledge my service to my scout group) and a stupid program you regret signing up for (YDSP), then please feel free to pop on Garena and find some lifeless people to play dota with.

I'm personally quitting dota (only playing 1 match a day, at most 2), because I simply found it too empty and time-wasting. 

Oh, on an interesting note with no offence to any religious group. 

My J2 senior and friend talked to me about his past experiences and tried to persuade me to turn Christian. I found his stories enriching and meaningful but I declined, since I am a person who has developed my own perspective to this world I live in, and I have made my peace to issues regarding beliefs and world views. 

Sometimes I feel glad about how religions change individuals to become better people and more active citizens in society. (Yet you see those crazy bomber extremists running amok around the world) But no, I am a person who has completely no intention to get myself a faith. Seems hypocritical, but heck.





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Non-scouts people might want to note that GC= group council = 9 of us who are taking over next year in scouts xD

Twilight movie outing

Poh Chu Yong thinks that the movie was good.
Poh Chu Yong was secretly learning pickup lines from the movie. (I just know it)
Poh Chu Yong thinks that themovie was romantic.

Yanwei thinks that the CG was on budget.
Yanwei made a lot of noise.
Yanwei thinks that the script sucks and there were a lot of cheesy lines.
Come think of it, the CG had virtually 0 budget.

Haoqin found the movie boring.
Haoqin found the movie unsuitable.

Wayne didn't buy student priced tickets and wasted everyone $3.50 each.
Wayne didn't buy student meal from BK (5 minutes after we cursed at him for not buying student ticket) and wasted $2.
Wayne's NFS is damn holyshit.

Jonathan Kenric Trachsel.....I don't know what he thinks about the movie.


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Sunday, December 14, 2008

zomg eve no jikan rocks =O

what a cold, boring day.




all those grey clouds,

raindrops,

wasted days,

dota matches,

empty bottles,

used tissues,

msn convos,

unwashed cutlery,

unfolded shirts,

unplayed FPS games,

scattered sheets of paper,

abandoned work;





of newfound burdens and responsibilities,

random melancholic pulses;





and that bed which has not been made for a few weeks,

with a crumpled jacket lying on it.





Woke up at 2.33pm today. What an unfulfilling holiday.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

omg tianyang I finally returned your hard drive to you today. 

Monday, December 1, 2008

Haven't been on msn or blogspot or whatever for nearly 1 whole week. Everyone's having fun holidays and no one bothers to use msn nowadays.

Gosh.

Thus far dota has been turning me off so I bought that medal of honor 10th anniversary thing to shoot up Jerrys in god mode, and it has thus far been pretty entertaining. MOH Airborne has cool graphics. It's too un-counterstrike, where counterstrike is the epitome of first-person-shooter-unrealism. 

Yesterday played a couple of dota matches, and I got a divine rapier for antimage with some imba 21:2 score. HAHA. A really long time since I got a divine rapier. 

And a few matches this week told me that I actually care about winning; I am actually a player who wants to win, but doesn't mind losing to a stronger team as long as my team isnt composed of noobs.

Like if I play with the 4Q doods and we lose I wouldn't feel sad about losing, but if I played with a bunch o' noobs who feed then I wouldnt be happy.


YDSP: Just realised that my previous week was entirely wasted. My partner didn't tell me a single thing about impedance matching for antennas before she left and my prof didn't tell me about impedance matching for antennas and I wasn't supposed to do antennas in the first place so I didn't even know about the existence of something called impedance matching. 

So.........yeah so my array simulations screwed up. I wouldn't blame anyone but I wouldn't be so morally courageous as to blame myself for this screw up either.

Currently I am just wasting time in NTU because all the HFSS (simulator program) licenses are used, so we have nothing to do. DSO's sending people down to visit our labs today to check on our progress, and I am trying to think of stupid stuff to smoke them up.